I actually was thinking of updating my blog both with blogdrive and blogspot. It's been a while since I had them updated. Anyways, I have not blogged thru friendster in many months now. Just trippin anyway coz I don't have much to do right now.
There are so many things to write about… some petty and some pretty significant. I'm actually having a hard time here trying to figure out what to blab.
Alright, whatever comes to mind…
AUDIO and EMO COMBO
About this song, SOMEBODY by Depeche Mode. I've always liked this song since I was in 3rd year high. The lyric never really struck me, not until early today when I heard it playing on the airwaves while I was commuting on my way home. While I sang along, I realized how the song defines me at my current state and my current outlook. I mean, the way I want things to be ever I be in a relationship with someone -again. Like all the essentials are there but then I don't want to be tied to anyone's strings. Haaayyy, it will probably just take the right person and the right time for me to unchain my thoughts from this commitment paranoia. Everyday, I wish for my White Knight or The One to come though. Zinnnggg, how would I know if the person is the one if I won't even set my mind to it, or even appreciate at least. I don't necessarily have to commit right. As good as it gets… live and enjoy it for the moment… that's how my mind thinks, I don't know with my heart. Honestly, I'm kinda dazed while writing this. As if I have the object of my ambivalence! Anyways, here's the lyric.
Somebody
By Depeche Mode
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
He'll get my support
He will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
He'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
He will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
And in a place like this
I'll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....
…. And because I am so chicken enough to give so much of myself. Most of those love attempts end up this way (I Love You, Goodbye). Truly, it seems like I cannot go on… or suddenly I force myself to just give it a halt.
I Love You, Goodbye
By Celine Dione
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye
…. Ang dramah anoh? Minahal ka na nga, ikaw naman 2ng ayaw kse dami mong dahilan! I have my own reasons, it's not something tragic that happened in the past noh! Basta, it's hard to explain! Parang I use my own lust over wanting to do and experience so much a lot of things in their different variety that keeps me from staying and holding. It's like I don't wanna keep my care free spirit to just be trapped… I wanna keep it soaring. Okay, like I wanna live in a country that speaks a different language, has a rich culture and entirely different people… like France, that's why I'm learning how to speak French. Then live in Italy after sometime and move to another place…. A nomad I will be but isn't that just liberating? This is my own idea of living life to the fullest! It's all about independence, liberation and Carpe Diem! I don't know if I seem delusional but to me, I am not, it's attainable because that's what I want.
But then, this want-or-fulfillment-over-emotional-attachment-with-someone kind of thing has it's own way of attacking me. Ten months ago… (Okay Valentine's Day – that I find so baduy when girls carry flowers and guys tend to be extra sweet… yuck!) a loveless me was making my way through Megamall on my way to the office when the song "All the Love in the World" played. Arrrgggghhh, ang sakit naman ng lines (yung may highlight). Here I am, all by myself as couples in the mood for something wonderful, surround me. I made my way to the office while playing that scene in the movie: Bridget Jones – The Edge of Reason wherein Mark and Bridget fought big, tapos si Brigada and si Mark, nagkanya-kanya, then may scenes dun na lahat sa paligid nila in pairs. Basta, nag-emote talaga ako nun! Promise! I arrived in the office with the loneliness almost eating me all up. Buti na lang, Rupert gave me a long-stemmed white rose. Haaaaayy, thank God…. And so, I'm back to my perky self once again!
All The Love in The World
By The Corrs
I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends, I'm more than ok
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me
Chorus:
Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it - I have no hesitation
My imagination just stole me away
Still I believe
I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me
Chorus
Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me
And I won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(don't wanna wake up alone)...
Where were we? Oh back to my perky self right? Yeah, I admit, sometimes I feel lonely, too. Sarap kaya ng skin-on manifestation ng love. Yung hugs, kisses, bolahan and just enjoying the silence when you have nothing left to say, basta you wanna stay with the person na lang forever! Parang okay na ang ganun! It's like, it's better to be just in one place with that person than have me be in thousands elsewhere. It's like an I-don't-fucking-care-how-the-world-outside-us-is-going kind of thing!
But then again, it will have to take the right person to change me and my current priorities that I wanna pursue… FOR THE LOVE OF ME! Narcissistic! But if the right person will come, then this will have to be the song.
What Might Have Been
By Lou Pardini
Somewhere lost in the wind
I'm watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember
Somehow
We said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
Promises to often spoken
Are easily broken apart
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm
No longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering......
......What might have been
Trace of forever lingering
Drawing me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt
I understand
Just how fragile love can be
I can't forget
Your memory found me
Now I know where I belong.....
I'm ready this time
I know that I'm
No longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering......
......What might have been
Through every day
And into the night
With only love to guide us
I'm ready to go
Cause I've got to know.....
What might have been
Let the lovin' decide
I can't run I can't hide.....
I want you to know
My heart will show
That I'm.....
Ready this time
I know that I'm
No longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering......
......What might have been
I've searched everywhere
And nothing compares
When we've got love to guide us
I'm ready to go
I've got to know.....
What might have been
I'm wondering.....
What might have been
I want to know
What might have been
We're gonna find
What might have been
Oh.......I wanna know
What might have been
Oh.......
What might have been
we're gonna find
What might have been
I wanna know
What might have been
............What might have been...........
How and where am I gonna meet him? Maybe I'll find him in one of my travels, or gala-gala, or my other involvements. If this will be the case then this song will have to fit. Hoist, down below ohhh!
I Finally Found Someone
By Bryan Adams and Barbara Streisand
I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete
We started over coffee, we started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin
This time it's different, dah dah dah dah
It's all because of you, dah dah dah dah
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through
Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"
It's all you had to say to take my breath away
1-This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one, to be with every night
'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone, ooh, someone
I finally found someone, oooh
Did I keep you waiting, I didn't mind
I apologize, baby, that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
And I love your hair, sure it looks fine
I love what you wear, isn't it the time?
You're exceptional, I can't wait for the rest of my life
(repeat 1)
Whatever I do, it's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
… or if he's someone from the past…. Well…
Am I The Same Girl? (SOS)
Why don't you stop
And look me over?
Am I the same girl
You used to know?
Why don't you stop
And think it over?
Am I the same girl
Whom you hurt so?
I'm the one you want
And I'm the one you need
I'm the one you love
The one you used to meet
Around the corner everyday
We would meet and slip away
But we were much too young
To love each other this way
Am I the same girl?
Yes I am, yes I am
Am I the same girl?
Yes I am, yes I am
Why don't you stop
And look me over?
Am I the same girl
You used to know?
Why don't you stop
And think it over?
Am I the same girl
Whom you hurt so?
I'm the one you hurt
And I'm the one you need
I'm the one who cried
The one you used to need
But you are pretending you don't care
But the fire, ahh, is still there
But we are no longer too young
To love each other this way
Am I the same girl?
Yes I am, yes I am
Am I the same girl?
Yes I am, yes I am
Oh, yes I am
Am I the same girl?
(Yes I am, yes I am)
Am I the same girl?, yeah
(Yes I am, yes I am)
Oh, yes I am
Am I the same girl?
(Yes I am, yes I am)
Oh, baby, yes I am
Basta! Either way… ayos lang. It will have to end up with this song and I'm currently digging this one:
STIKWITU
By the Pussycat Dolls
don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
I don't want to go another
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby, you're with me
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
or if I'll just be tied to my wanderlust, liberation, freedom and independence! The song would go:
Born to be Wild
Words and music by Mars Bonfire
Get your motor runnin'
Head out on the highway
Lookin' for adventure
And whatever comes our way
Yeah Darlin' go make it happen
Take the world in a love embrace
Fire all of your guns at once
And explode into space
I like smoke and lightning
Heavy metal thunder
Racin' with the wind
And the feelin' that I'm under
Yeah Darlin' go make it happen
Take the world in a love embrace
Fire all of your guns at once
And explode into space
Like a true nature's child
We were born, born to be wild
We can climb so high
I never wanna die
Born to be wild
Born to be wild
Enough na. Nababaduyan na ako! Harharhar! I'm tired of typing. I'm hungry! I wanna eat already! Maybe I'm just able to come up with this idea coz I'm starving! Zing! Basilio? Crispin? Asan na kayo?
